Wednesday, January 21, 2015

Ready.. Set.. Adventures!

India's booked with Philippines to follow and I am excited and nervous and all of those other conflicting feelings that make me certain that this next step is the correct one.

I'll be spending the next two weeks penning concrete goals for these trips to make sure that this trip is worthwhile.

Without goals you're just dreamin'.

Wednesday, January 14, 2015

Annual Introspection

Shame on me for missing my annual reflection post. I haven't missed this since, well, I don't even know when. I started this tradition in high school and think this is my first miss. I'll make an exception just this once, because these first two weeks have been incredibly hectic, but that's what I get for deciding to moving down the coast on New Year's Eve.

Segue into.. I'm back! In Florida, that is. And only temporarily. I've been re-organizing both my things and my thoughts since my return, and I guess now is as good a time as any to continue to the sorting.

2014 involved a lot of planning. Before it had even started, I knew a change was inevitable. Life was generally fine, but there was a dissatisfaction that was stirring my soul. Because of the nature of my job and other grown up responsibilities (i.e. rent, food, bills, loans, etc) I had to plan my exit carefully. I made my moves and waited patiently for this new year to arrive, and IT'S FINALLY HERE!

Here are the things what I am thankful for, which have allowed me to move confidently into this next part of my life:

1. Work: Office jobs can feel soul sucking, but I gained valuable industry experience and built lasting relationships. With the job came financial stability, and when your basic needs are taken care of, it frees up an incredible amount of energy to worry about other things and ask other questions besides, "How am I going to pay for this?" and instead ask, "What is my next step?"

2. My relationship: He has been an incredible blessing in my life. To have someone who is as loving, patient and supportive as he is motivates me to be better in all ways, for myself and our future. I want to be as big of a blessing in his life as he is in mine.

3. My family: They drive me crazy, but I love them. My parents love me too much for me to not do everything I can to make them proud; and they've done everything possible to put us in a position to chase our dreams.

4. My faith: His plans are infinitely better than my own.

Happy New Year!


Monday, October 20, 2014

The Clock Goes Tic Toc Tic Toc

It's already October yet 2015 can't get here fast enough! Still lots of exciting things to wrap up the end of the year, but I am completely anxious/nervous/excited about what's to come.

These last two years in NY/NJ have taught me a lot, and my job was definitely experience but I've been itching to get back to the Philippines since I left.

This zombie life is not the life for me. 2015 will be my revival.

Monday, August 25, 2014

Snooze Button

Two years and a mere 23 posts later, I'm ready to be re-inspired. Apparently I've been sleepwalking all the while and now it's time to WAKE UP!

Stability it great, but when your bad moments outnumber the good, it's time to identify and walk from what it is that is making you unhappy. Make a move and run towards your dreams.

Just don't fall asleep for too long.

Friday, April 11, 2014

Don't sit next to me just because I'm Asian

Much to my parents' disappointment, I didn't become a doctor, lawyer, or engineer. Much to their delight, I am dating one of them now lol Just kidding. Seriously though, their belief that I could be any of the above made me believe I was capable of doing anything at all, as long as I worked hard and did my best.

They were never pushy, but there were pangs of disappointment and moments when I felt like what I was doing still wasn't enough. As an adult I am still learning that precarious balance of striving for more and being satisfied with myself.

Read this article from the Washington Post, and you'll know what I'm talking about.

Not so sure about the last two paragraphs though. What's so awful about "academic prowess" being coded as an "Asian thing"? Not a bad stereotype, if you ask me.
They were never pushy, but there were pangs of disappointment and moments when I felt like what I was doing still wasn't enough. As an adult I am still learning that precarious balance of striving for more and being satisfied with myself.
Not so sure about the last two paragraphs though. What's so awful about "academic prowess" being coded as an "Asian thing"? Not a bad stereotype, if you ask me.

Wednesday, April 9, 2014

Break Time

I'm ready for a little break. I need to feel the sun on my face and put my toes in the sand. I need to re-group, because lately I haven't felt like myself. I'm tired. Drained. But that's what living up here does to you. You're always on the go, and the weekends go by so quickly, it hardly feels like you had time to rest at all.

It has been a rough, long, relentless winter. A few times, I think my face froze off. Once, I think a million needles stabbed me in the face all at once. Just a week ago, I was still piling on layers, and all I could think was that I've maxed out my used of fleece leggings and oversized sweaters. Seriously, how many times can I wear practically glorified pajamas and deem it socially acceptable?

Bring on the shorts, sundresses, crop tops and flip flops.

I need to feel like myself again. Fast. And I hope Spring will help me get back there until I get my homesick self back to Florida for a dose of family and friends. They're the best things to remind me of who I am.

Tuesday, April 8, 2014

Just Keep Swimming

That thing that you think about all day at work and can't wait to get to; that keeps you up until 1 or 2 in the morning when you have to be up in a few hours...

That is the thing that you should be doing for the rest of your life.

Keep going.